Saturday, February 14, 2015

List of February Loves

Since today is Valentine's Day, I thought I would share some things I am loving this month.

Album:  Switchfoot's Fading West

This album is quickly becoming one of my favorite albums of all time.  Switchfoot, if you couldn't tell, is one of my favorite bands of all time.  Their lyrics hit me right in my heart. One song in particular brought such clarity to my thinking about life.  It's called, "The World You Want".  If you click the song title, it will take you to the official audio from their Youtube channel.  While I could listen to their whole album on the Youtube platform for free, I decided to buy the album.

Fading West

Netflix:  Switchfoot: Fading West Film

Yes, I am on a Switchfoot kick.  Their film on Netflix is awesome.  They decided to go on tour, surf, and record an album, all while documenting their journey.  You get to witness their heart and soul, reaching the world with their message of love and music.  One line which stuck with me, "If you're leaving your family behind, you better believe in what you are singing."

And I believe them.

It reminds me of a poem I wrote a few years ago, "When you sing, I believe it."


Cottage Cheese

Yes, I have found a new favorite food to snack on at work.  The cottage cheese I buy comes in a one serving container and has 20 grams of protein.  It keeps me full and away from junk food, while at work anyways.

Saturday, February 7, 2015

"Grotesque Imagery" by Sak

Grotesque imagery
No, you don't flatter me
There are consequences to your rashness
Never before have I thought you weak, but I see that you are...
Needing everlasting accolades
Recognition of not just peers, but everyone
They are your only source of fulfillment
You'll never confess
You're strong
Yes, I see that 'S' on your chest, but for me it stands for shallow, spineless, shameless
You think you save fair maidens, but you leave them all old maids

Thursday, February 5, 2015

Phase One by Sak

Sometimes I want to lock myself up
Protect others from my irrationality
My jealous nature taking over from time to time
In moments of weakness, crying out to anyone with the time of day
Afraid of my influences, the culture gets to me, seeps from my veins

Away, away to beyond that starry shore
Take me away from this place of no return
Crying for shame
Am I not in control?
Angry at how I let myself go...

Disappointed in my selfish gaze
If I bared my soul, would it be like bearing my breast?
Would I shrink back in shame?
Would you shudder in detest?

Wretched, wretched lie, come bid me now...
Forever inflamed in a passionate embrace

Tuesday, February 3, 2015

January Goals Update

Do you know what stinks?  Having the flu.  It went straight to my lungs.  It felt like I was drowning. The cough is still lingering, all other symptoms are gone.

The first two weeks of January I feel like I did great with going to the gym and working out. The last two weeks were rough.  Being sick and working out do not go together.

I finished reading Checkout Girl and Slaughterhouse Five, or The Children's Crusade.  I decided to come up with a ranking system for the books I read.  No star ratings, no 1 out of 10.  I want to put a unique twist to it.  This will be a mini goal for next month.

I did not finish What Maisie Knew.  The book was too depressing.  If the book was shorter, I might have been able to push myself through it.  It is about a young girl experiencing her parents' divorce and subsequent relationships.  Her parents use her to attack each other. I am interested in watching the movie version, starring Julianne Moore and Alexander Skarsgard.

The book I chose to replace What Maisie Knew is...

Ellen Foster

When I was younger, ABC used to play a Hallmark movie on Sunday nights.  One of the movies was Ellen Foster.  It made a large impression on me. When I found Ellen Foster by Kaye Gibbons in my library's used book sale, I had to buy it.  It is about a young girl growing up in the rural South during what is probably the 1970s.  No date in particular is mentioned, but it seems to take place before the technological boom of the 1980s.  Ellen Foster grows up with a sick mother and an abusive father. When her mom dies, she has to fend for herself and grow up fast. Eventually, she is taken from her father's care and shuffles between multiple relatives.  Ellen Foster narrates her story from the safety of her "new mama's" home.  The story is touching.

I did not complete Dune last month, but I plan on finishing it.  The book is deep and intense.  I want to take the time to think about it, not rush through it.  The edition I own has the first three books and appendixes.

This past week, I have been reading through old journals and notebooks.  It is hilarious reading through the dramatic teenage years.  It makes me happy my life is a lot more even since writing those tumultuous thoughts and emotions.  One time in a crowd of people, a few girls were discussing a boy they found attractive.  One of the girls loudly inquired, "Yeah Sarah, does anyone else like ___?"  I was embarrassed and probably blushed, but I ignored her.  Looking back on the situation, she is the one who should have felt embarrassed.  I am glad I did not react, because reactions only add fuel to the fire. But of course, my journal heard all about it later.  This is why it is therapeutic to privately journal.  You can voice anger, hurt, frustration, embarrassment, without feeling judged. Later you can look back and have a different perspective.

Organization was not accomplished this month.  This will transfer over to next month's goals.

My cornet has not been played nearly enough this month.  I did not want to play when I was sick.  I know it is an excuse, but it's a good one, right?  Sometimes, I wish I could use emojis in my blog posts.

The idea of monthly goal setting came from Kelli from the blog
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This Friday, I will post my February Goals.

How was your January?  Did you begin or complete any projects?
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