"Tell me old friend
How long has it been
Since we sat together alone
with pencil in hand
I write of lavender
Immediately, this poem I wrote in high school came to my mind when I thought to write again. Last year was rough, not only for me, but a whole lot of us. Collectively, I feel we are looking to 2015 to be a better year. 2015 don't disappoint us!
This year, I would like to work on feeling better about my health. As a young child, I always knew I was bigger than all my friends. I was proud of the fact that I was taller than kids my age. It wasn't until I was ten years old that someone called me (through the grapevine) fat. Hearing those words from my best friend's mouth stung. Fast forward to being an emotional teenager, the Doctor tells me, at fifteen, to stop eating so much. At this time, all my friends are thinner than me. I felt horrible. This began a dieting trend, at one point, I was eating less than 1000 calories a day (half the required nutrition your body needs) and my hair started falling out. But the compliments! Every one said how great I looked, how thin I was...and I still wasn't completely satisfied. Once my mom found out and my hair started falling out, I stopped the madness. I gained all the weight back in one month. I still have the stretchmarks. Our society praises the thin and shames the "fat". While I still secretly crave being thin, I want to be a healthy contributing member of society first and foremost. I am done with body shaming and on to body celebration.
My first goal for the year is to exercise six days per week, not merely for weight loss, but to feel great. Belonging to a gym is helping me achieve this goal. The elliptical machine is my favorite, because there is less impact on my joints, allowing me to sweat and actually feel the burn of my muscles. My closest run speed was eight minutes and fifty-six seconds, inching closer to the goal of an eight minute mile.
MyFitnessPal is an app I am using on my phone to help me keep track of my nutrition intake and exercises. This app will tell you if you need to consume more calories. I find this refreshing, as opposed to saying "Great job! You ate less today!" The app says, "Based on your total calories consumed for today, you are likely not eating enough." It goes on to describe healthy weight loss and the importance of adequate nutrition. Right now, I have the app set to a half a pound per week weight loss regiment.
My second goal for the year is to play my cornet. While I doubt I will ever get to the point of being able to play in a band (or in front of an audience at all), I want to play for myself. Maybe at the end of the year, I will play and post a Youtube video of me playing a song.
My third goal for the year is to complete my 52 Book Challenge on Goodreads. You can check up on my progress clicking this link.
This month I am focusing on reading:
Dune by Frank Herbert
What Maisie Knew (Penguin Classics)
Once a month, I will be posting progress on my yearly goals, as well as setting mini monthly goals using my four quadrants.
Four Quadrants: Mental, Emotional, Physical, Spiritual
Mentally, I am going to organize two rooms in our house, the bedroom and the game room.
"A place for everything, and everything in its place." - Benjamin Franklin
"Tidy room, tidy mind."
Spiritually, this month, I would like to focus on giving.
"Every man according as he purposeth in his heart, so let him give; not grudgingly, or of necessity: for God loveth a cheerful giver." - II Corinthians 9:7
Emotionally, I would like to privately journal, penning thoughts and emotions, in a safe space.
Physically, I am going to stick with exercising six days per week.
The idea of monthly goal setting came from Kelli from the blog shelearnsshegoes.com Please visit her site and send her love.
Wow, this blog post is a long one. Thank you for taking the time to read my 2015 Goals and please, tell me your plans for this new year.