Still can't find the book. It's very frustrating. It is heart wrenching to think it's gone forever. All my hard work disappeared. It was about a girl who goes to live with her aunt and uncle out of state. She decides to volunteer at a hospital where she meets a boy. Yes, it's a boy meets girl story. Cliche.
Tomorrow I'm going swimming! Joe is coming with me! Fitness should be fun every once in a while.
Tomorrow I'm also whipping out the craft supplies, taking inventory and starting some projects. Maybe finishing others. It's about time I created something again. Something of value.
Summer is here. Heat is here. Humidity is here. Yuck.
Yes, I went to the gym today. Even though I did not want to...which is perseverance. I forgot my headphones which is tragic! Instead of using my MP3 player, I watched Dr. Phil and Dr. Oz. Two doctors with a one syllable last name. I wonder if they make better health decisions? Or maybe they got their TV deals because their names are easy to pronounce and remember.
Tomorrow my gym buddy and I will be working out together. It is so much easier to bring a friend along. It's less lonely and you have motivation.
It's hard to make healthy choices. So far I have only worked out once this week. Tomorrow, Friday, and Saturday are my other days. Saturday is my two hour commitment. Ouch! It's tough the first few minutes, but after a while it's not so bad. That's what I have to continually remind myself, because it's a huge mental battle for me to end up at the gym. It's hard to have the motivation to go by myself. Joe said he would come with me to walk on the treadmill. We need other people in our lives, to inspire us, motivate, give us gumption. We are not meant to be alone. Yes, it is important to be separate, there is a time to focus on ourselves, regroup, define ourselves, our boundaries. It is also important to socialize. We do not have to entertain a hundred people for dinner or attend a loud rock concert. Quality over quantity.
Making healthy eating choices are hard, too. I need to incorporate more fruits and veggies into my diet. Less carbs! This drink is amazing. Hello Beautiful is the chocolate one, yummm. http://sveltebrand.com/products/ My co-worker recommended it. Thanks! :)
I don't wanna be the answer to your dilemma I don't wanna be the reason for your wandering heart I don't wanna be the shoulder you lean on when she's not there I don't wanna be the one who makes her doubt your love
'Cause it's true and it's pure, it's spotless without blemish 'Cause it's real and it's strong, and it knows the difference between right and wrong...
I don't wanna do this to her Even though she'd do it to me 'Cause she already did, but I won't
She can never know
'Bout the way you look at me, set me free, can make me smile even when I don't wanna 'Bout the way you touched me, set me loose on the world, how you hold this heart in the palm of your hand
I don't wanna be the answer to your dillema I don't wanna be the reason for your wandering heart I don't wanna be the shoulder you lean on when she's not there I don't wanna be the one who makes her doubt your love
Luckily, I have two dads! My earthly father and my heavenly Father, who both look after me and love me.
"For ye have not received the spirit of bondage again to fear; but ye have received the Spirit of adoption, whereby we cry, Abba, Father." - Romans 8:14
One of my favorite memories of my dad is when we would travel to NYC together for work. We would get up at 2am in the morning and drive 3 1/2 hours in the dark and see the sunrise as we reached the Tappan Zee Bridge. We would work til about 5pm and then drive all the way home. One time we had a multiple day job, so we stayed in a hotel and hung out in the greatest city in the world. We visited The Stage Door for breakfast and had bagels with a whole container of cream cheese on each! The pizza in NYC is the greatest in the world, don't let anyone fool you. ;)
God also chooses to relate to us as His children. He is always there for us, even when we don't necessarily see it.
"Every good gift and every perfect gift is from above, and cometh down from the Father of lights, with whom is no variableness, neither shadow of turning." - James 1:17
Fail! Complete and utter fail! My manuscript is lost. Maybe the more correct term would be missing? It's buried in a notebook, which is buried in a box...and there are many. We are in the process of moving. We are taking the month to move, so I cannot guarantee it will be found anytime soon. I thought it would be a great idea and might inspire me to finish my book by publishing a chapter or two...or a paragraph or two a week on here. I did start to transfer it onto my computer, but I can't find the thumb drive it's on. It's probably buried in another box.
Here's to hoping I find it before next Fiction Friday.
I'll just post a picture of a kitten and possibly all will be forgiven? Please?
Yesterday I worked out for two hours again! It's becoming more fun to sweat. My ankles do not hurt anymore either. What did I watch while working out? Doctor Oz and...Good Eats. Haha, watching the Food Network while exercising, such a good idea. Alton Brown is amazing. Between the elliptical and the treadmill I went over six miles.
Let's play another round of what's in my MP3 Player.
"Call It What You Want" by Foster the People. It's my new favorite work out song. Sometimes I'll put it on repeat. The music video is eclectic, weird, and slightly disturbing.
"Free" by Switchfoot This is an amazing song by an amazing band. Switchfoot is my favorite band (which is still together, The Beatles are my number one of all time). Someday I will dedicate a blog post to my top Switchfoot songs, after all, this blog is named after them. The song "Free" is a cry of the soul. Unfortunately, this song does not have an official music video on Youtube.
"Watch Over Me" by Hanson Yes, Hanson is the boy band of the '90s who sang ""Mmmbop", but they have grown up and matured. Their songs have changed much since their tween days. This song is one of my top faves.
"Give Up" by Sherwood. I saw these guys in concert years ago. They were awesome! I just found out the band broke up. How sad. The two albums I own are amazing, check them out if you like a good beat.
It doesn't matter anymore
Whatever don't fit we don't need
Leave it behind
The bride will be bashful
The groom will grin
The parents will beam
Along w/the friends
But a piece of my heart fell off
Sunk into my chest
And I forgot to breath
You know he told me he loved me
But he didn't mean it - his actions prove him wrong
A big white house w/pillars in the front, an upstairs, a basement, an attic, a porch w/rockers, a library, a study, silence, time apart
All I want to do is burn that picture
But I can't - my heart may break
Turns out I need to step up to the plate. Or away from the plate. My weight has not fluctuated at all since I started keeping track. My gym plans fell through for today, so tomorrow I will go in the morning for two hours. On Wednesday, I will go for one hour after work. Then I might go on Friday after work. Saturday morning will be another two hour day. Tonight we will have fish and salad for dinner. Tomorrow I will have strawberries and a protein shake for breakfast and lunch? Maybe I will have salad again for lunch. When I am at work I need to eat more fruits and veggies, instead of carbs. My body needs more Vitamin C. Since I'm not going to the gym today, I will instead use my three pound weights while watching Netflix.
I'm not perfect.
What else can I do to motivate myself to work out and eat right? Maybe if I write down everything I eat and drink and consume? Or maybe that's not enough. Maybe I need to take pictures of everything? It would be a visual reminder of what I ate. I need to practice more self control, mindful eating, taking smaller bites, relishing what I eat, taking my time. Being at work though, I have to rush, otherwise I will be late and get in trouble. I need to plan in advance for work meals.
Can I tell you how much it bothers me when I see people eating McDonald's and they are a size two? I envy people with fast metabolisms. Maybe it is something I need to work on in my life.
We are moving next month and the plan is to learn how to cook healthy and delicious meals in our new kitchen.
Yesterday I went to the gym for 2 hours! Yes, I met my goal! One hour was on the elliptical, the cardio setting, and the next hour I walked on the treadmill. The first few minutes on the elliptical is no fun. My body just wants to get off and quit, but if I keep at it, my attitude changes. I didn't want to get off the elliptical! What inspired me to switch to the treadmill? My water bottle needed a refill. One thing I notice while exercising, my head gets super hot. My body sweats, yes, but my head feels very warm. I wish I had an ice pack.
This next week, I would like to work out Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, and Saturday. We will see how it goes...no, no, no! Commit!
My friend showed up! We went on the elliptical and treadmill. It is terrible to be working out and the Food Network is playing. Talk about torture! I've come to the conclusion that everything looks good when you are sweating. My ankles and knees hurt quite a bit.
Nutritionally speaking, Joe and I decided to have one fruit and veggie day a week. We will have to come up with some crazy combinations to keep it fresh and fun. I'll have to get some recipe recommendations.
Sorrow like a salve to draw out my heart
What does it feel?
numb, obtuse, fabricated and false
What does the mirror reveal?
emptiness hollow unrecognizable canvass
What to change how to alter erase?
but didn't I?
a huge question mark
it was not hate
it was the only way to survive
to label correct name
everyone and yet no one
You can imagine but can you experience?
the brain is a funny thing
concocting the past based on today's truths
always lonely never alone
we do look at the same sky, but we see different stars
I'm looking at the dippers and the north
craving the moon to stay still
but it follows me
the dark, the night
The library did not have any good fitness DVDs. Guess this means I need to invest some dollars into my home workout routine. Maybe Zumba or Just Dance for the Playstation? Which is better? Which is more fun?
The plan this week is to work out with one gym buddy on Wednesday, another gym buddy on Thursday, and Friday is two hour sweat day! Having a schedule definitely helps. It's a form of commitment.
I'm thinking the blog needs some structure.
Tuesday is poetry day.
Wednesday is fitness/health day.
Fiction Fridays are self explanatory.
Should Monday be Music Mondays? The other days are for whatever I want. ;)
Today started out great, then it all went downhill from there. Yes, I am an emotional eater, but even after eating chocolate ice cream, I was not satisfied and still in the predicament I was before... It really is no use in eating to avoid emotion. Talking helps, only if the person is genuinely interested.
Today I thought it would be cool to blog my Top Ten Play List for the gym at the moment. The songs are not in any particular order, because I use shuffle.
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